The summer is over. It was busy, busy, busy - with lots of weekends out of town, lack of consistency and a ton of adoption prep. Josh went on a camping trip/river float with friends and another long weekend went house boating. I was able to get away on my first ever sister's weekend (there will be more!!). My sis and I headed to SF, stayed in a hoity-toity hotel, didn't keep track of time and got to talk a LOT! It was A.M.A.Z.I.N.G!
A lot has been changing.
*Natalie is now enjoying preschool a few mornings a week!
*The reality of adoption is starting to sink in. How hard it is for a woman to choose to give her child to another family. The loss and brokenness of it all. Yet the joy of welcoming a new one into our lives. I find myself thinking of the birthmother quite often (whoever she may be). As hard as this process is for me - I cannot fathom how difficult it is for her.
*Just when I thought that it was 'smooth sailing' with all my meds and no changes would have to be made....I find out that my dr has been overmedicating, not warning me of possible serious side effects, and giving me false information for the last year+. I felt so defeated. Medication is such a process - finding what works, what doesn't work. It takes months and months and months to get it 'right'. I was also angry. How could this person - who I trusted to take care of me - fail me so miserably? Good news is that my old dr (from when I was a teen) agreed to see me again and is doing a fantastic job getting me where I need to be.
*Wow. This is turning into quite a downer of a post....
Anyway, life is good. In the midst of my stress I have to remind myself that I have an amazing life - amazingly supportive husband, loving & energetic daughter, and a beautiful town to live in.
Here are a few recent pics:
First Carousel Ride
Jennie and me in SF
(this is the standard photo pose with the tourists)
Josh and Natalie played hard while I was in SF
Hiking, paddle boating, playing with friends :-)
When Josh's dad was in town we went to the nearby beach that you can drive on. (Pretty sure I haven't been on that beach since Josh and I were dating. Crazy!)